Hello world (if anyone is reading this, haha)
I am back to writing after a long hiatus due to lack of a cellphone and just plain ol’ procrasination. I feel like now, more than ever, I should be writing. I need to stop keeping all my thoughts in my head. It’s not healthy.
I’ve felt a whirlwind of different emotions in the past little while. I found out that my older sister, is struggling with something pretty serious. Something that could cost her her life and her family. I thought she had shaken all of this, but I guess it’s only gotten worse. She’s starting to get herself healthy again, but she has zero support from her so-called boyfriend/baby daddy. All he’s been doing is drinking until he’s sick, playing victim and blaming my sister for everything. It’s so heartbreaking. She doesn’t deserve to feel like she’s alone like that.
So I figured it’s best if I go and see my sister on Friday. I’m going to take the bus there and stay until the beginning of next week. I’m hoping to bring her spirits up and be there for her so she can take it easy (for herself and her growing baby). I haven’t seen her in about five years and this will be the first time I meet my three year old nephew. Time needs to hurry up so I’m there already!
My mom informed me, a couple days ago, that she’s now on Oxygen. She had been suffering pretty seriously since her radiation treatments (back in 2015-2016). I’m glad her quality of life has been improved, but I’m so frustrated that she didn’t tell me about it at all until it came up casually in conversation. My entire family does that and it fricken scares me. Regardless, it was incredible getting to talk to her on the phone and hear her voice. It’s been way too long.
Well, I suppose that’s all that update energy I have for now. I’m going to make a reminder on my phone to actually post on here once a day. Writing is so good for my soul. I keep forgetting that.
what a loooooong day… whew.
2018 is most definitely gonna be the best year of my life. So far, many changes have come my way, but every single one has been positively; good change. I already have so many goals for this year and for once in my life, I have faith in myself that I will accomplish absolutely EVERYTHING.
One of my goals for 2018 is to get back into writing daily and creating short fiction pieces. I really miss writing and now that I’m happy, I want to create, create, create! I was hoping by starting this blog, I’ll feel more inclined to write and express.
I’ve met and fallen for the man that I’m gonna marry. I have never believed the whole “soul mate” thing until Morgan walked into my life. I have never, ever felt this way about someone else before and I’m gonna hang on to him forever. I’m so lucky to have met such an incredible human being.
One thing that hasn’t and will never change, is my enthusiasm for cannabis. By becoming a stoner 6 years ago, I’ve been able to recover from my 9 year struggle with Anorexia Nervosa. Obviously, I’m not completely cured of the disorder, but cannabis definitely keeps me from starving myself. Not only that, but it has helped change how I think/feel about myself. I no longer hate what I see when I look in the mirror. I no longer see fat that isn’t even there. Weed isn’t a drug, it’s a lifestyle. MY LIFESTYLE.